***Written 8/1/2010***
I think that's how the saying goes or it's something like that. But in all honesty if the doors keep closing I'm going to have to start breaking them down and kicking in some faces! Seriously could things not be more doom and gloom these days? My father is currently out of work, my sister's husband just got laid off after they bought a new home and I'm going to be out of a place to live in less than a year. Life could be worse... granted... and I guess bad things happen in threes, but it just keeps piling up.
On a happier note... I completed my second full marathon on July 25th in San Francisco. I had a goal of four hours and thirty minutes and finished in 4.28! It was such an amazing day and I felt so overjoyed to have reached my goal. I was so inspired that I registered for the Long Beach International Marathon which takes place on October 17th. I took two weeks off after the race and just went back to the gym last night. I didn't want to... Oh lord I did not want to, but i did and I feel so much better for it. I ran 3 miles at an average pace of 9.20 minutes per mile. That's about a minute off my pace that I ran the San Francisco marathon with and I am hoping to get it down even more! It takes a lot of conviction and dedication to accomplish that and I'm pushing myself through it... dragging more like it.
I was supposed to have stared a new routine this week, but with all the going ons as of late i was unable to accomplish that. In times of chaos order is needed and found to be a great relief to some. Honestly, I think I function better when I know that something is slipping or that my deadline is quickly approaching. Like - Dani - get off your ass and get to it! The job gets done and I worry so much about it being good that I over do it and end up rocking what ever it is I'm working on... That applied to when I was in school... Now... not so much.
Today is a new beginning. It has started off an unlikely candidate for such a title, but taking a retrospective look today is as good as any to be a new start of something better. I've been sick for the past week and thought that a good work out and soak in the sauna would clear me up. Wrong. It only made it worse and then a trip to the dentist went from 3 cavities to 4 new fillings and a sore face. Sick and sore and running late for work and just as it would be with my luck, my car wouldn't start. All things within my power to avoid, but due to my procrastination and pertinacious nature I am in the state of affairs you find me in today. Sick, sore and with a dead car. How could I have avoided getting sick you ask?? Thinking I'm just being hard on myself I know, but really it was avoidable. Sharing straws with the kids and letting them sleep on me in a huge dog-pile of cuddling love and comfort is how. I enjoyed every minute of it, but am now paying the price for not paying heed to the sound of cough and sniffle when little eyes looked up at me gooberly asking for a sip of my drink. My heart melts and I give in to the adorable whimsical cherub looking up at me and think I am invincible against her tiny microorganisms that carry the plague. Alas, I am not and my body succumbs to the sickness and I am down for the count.... 5 days later it feels like an eternity. Dramatic, I know, but well deserved as this sickness is the worst... Coughing, sore throat, phlegm and sleepless nights. It's awful!
Issue two - Cavities... Yea I don't floss... Problem could have been solved if I just flossed.
Issue three - Car wouldn't start... I need a new battery. I fell asleep in the backseat with the headlights on for an hour and drained it. I've had it for 4+ years so it's just time for a new one and I've been procrastinating getting a new one because they're like $100.
All perfectly avoidable and yet I choose to NOT change and live each day like the rest... A non flossing, cheap ass and sucker for kids... Yup, that's me.
So how is today a new beginning?? A new start for something better? Because I can change and have the desire but just don't know where to start. I think it needs to be something small and something within a short time frame so I can feel like I actually accomplished something. Well I know I'm totally going to start flossing because I am a cheap ass and that right there cost me $250! So flossing - check - done signed and filed away in the TO DO every day category. Now the car... It's paid off and since I want to save money I'm thinking I'm going to park it, cancel the insurance and use public transit and my feet to get me where I need to go. If I do this for one year I will save around $4000/year on gas, insurance and maintenance on the car.
Then after 1 year if I find that I can live without a car and saved my money... Then I think I will finally buy my motorcycle!
Life goals... small... attainable and I THINK I CAN DO IT!!! :)
